Eyeing the Waves

And in the fourth watch of the night He came to them, walking on the sea. When the disciples saw Him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, "It is a ghost!" And they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, "Take courage, it is I; do not be afraid." Peter said to Him, "Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water." And He said, "Come!" And Peter got out of the boat, and walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But seeing the wind, he became frightened, and beginning to sink, he cried out, "Lord, save me!" Immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and took hold of him, and *said to him, "You of little faith, why did you doubt?" (Matthew 14:25-31 NAS)

So it has been a busy week.  In some ways a tough week, but that is really due to me.

Started the week by going down and spending a couple of days helping my father inlaw rebuild the floor of the boat we will be using for camp this summer.  It was hot work but good work and I enjoyed working with my father inlaw and I learned some new things.  It did put a real crimp in my work schedule up here, but that's ok.

BUT... the last couple of weeks has seen several new wrinkles develop in my efforts to prepare for Berea this summer.  Already behind, I have had staff and speakers drop out in ways that I have never experienced in 13 years of being director.  There are many challenges to face and this week I really let it all get to me and I started really Stressing Out over it all.  When the second staff member in two weeks contacted me to tell me they couldn't come, I started contemplating my own departure.  I had had it.

God, however, was not stressing out.  My eyes weren't on Him though, my eyes were squarely on the waves.  I was way beyond doubt.  I was living with a firm conviction of hopelessness.  Then God sent five candidates to fill three positions.  Oh.  Well....uh.... yeah.    And I hadn't even had the sense to yell out, "Lord, save me!"

I stand rebuked again by the frailness of my own faith.  I too often eye the waves not the savior.  I know with Christ I can weather any storm, but when those storms come, I start worrying about the weather.  I am of little faith.  God is patient, but I should really get this together.

How about you?